6 YEARS AFTER ONE OF MY TWINS D:IED, MY DAUGHTER CAME HOME FROM HER FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AND SAID: “PACK ONE MORE LUNCHBOX FOR MY SISTER.”

6 YEARS AFTER ONE OF MY TWINS D:IED, MY DAUGHTER CAME HOME FROM HER FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AND SAID: “PACK ONE MORE LUNCHBOX FOR MY SISTER.”

6 YEARS AFTER ONE OF MY TWINS D:IED, MY DAUGHTER CAME HOME FROM HER FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AND SAID: “PACK ONE MORE LUNCHBOX FOR MY SISTER.”

I’m thirty-seven. Six years ago, I went into labor with twins.

The delivery room turned to chaos almost immediately — doctors rushing, machines blaring in a rhythm I still hear sometimes in the quiet moments right before I fall asleep. Then, suddenly, silence.

“One of the babies,” they told me, “didn’t survive.”

Complications during delivery, they said. I never even got to see her.