A dog ran towards me in the park, wearing in his mouth the denim cap of my missing son – when I turned it over, the dog owner shouted, “Who told you to look inside? 1

Seven years after my son disappeared, I was sitting alone in a park, trying not to sink into grief, when a dog came in trotting, my boy’s denim cap in his mouth. With my hands trembling, I stretched out my hand to the visor, and that’s when the dog’s master ran through the lawn, terrified of what I could find there.

It was a terrible, trying day. One of those days when the air is stifling. My empty house seemed like a real tomb, so I started wandering around aimlessly.

I needed to escape my suffocating grief. I only stopped walking when I collapsed on a cold, secluded bench in a distant park.

My empty house seemed like a real tomb.

My phone vibrated in the pocket of my coat, breaking the silence. I stared at the screen before I finally answered.

“Where are you right now? Asks my sister Chloe, her voice strangled by worry. “It’s starting to get dark, Colleen. You have to go home. »

I tightened my jacket around my shivering shoulders. “I don’t know,” I whispered. “I’m sitting in some park on the outskirts of the city. »

“It’s not safe to be out alone,” she said.

“I can’t do it today, Chloe. I just can’t get through that front door. »

“Why not? “She asked slowly. “Talk to me, Colleen. »

“It’s not sure you’re out there alone. »

“Because the house is way too silent,” I sobbed, tears eventually flowing. “It’s suffocating. I know exactly what week we are. I grabbed the wooden edge of the bench. “My baby would have been sixteen today. I should be making her a birthday cake, not crying her ghost. »

“I also miss him, Colleen,” Chloe said softly. “But staying there alone will not bring Caleb back. Please, go home. »

“I’ve been living a real hell for seven years! “I shouted, voice broken. “He was only nine years old. He was there, on the playground, and then he disappeared. I never found any of his clothes to prove he was gone. Neither his red t-shirt, nor his gray shorts, nor his favorite washed-out denim cap. »

“I’m on my way to your house,” Chloe said in a firm tone. “Back immediately. »

“He was only nine years old.”

“All right, give me five minutes to pull myself together,” I whispered hanging up.

I buried my face in my hands, trying to calm my heart that was beating. Suddenly, a black and white border collie trotted up to my boots.

“Well, hi my little darling,” I whispered, sniffing and wiping my eyes. “Where is your master? »

The dog sat down while wagging his tail. That’s when I noticed something blue firmly tight in his mouth.

“What do you have here, buddy? I asked, stretching out a trembling hand. “Is that a toy? »

I had a high heart. The fabric was strangely familiar.

I noticed something blue firmly stuck in his mouth.

“Let him go! I have commanded, the voice trembling. “Please, let him go immediately. Give it to me. »

The dog opened his mouth docily. A washed-out and earth-stained denim cap lands right on my shoes.

“Oh my God! “I have panted, eyes on the ground, incredulous. “No, it’s absolutely impossible. “I collapsed on my knees in the wet grass. “This is Caleb’s cap. This is my baby’s hat. »

I picked up the fragile fabric and squeezed it against my chest like a lifebuoy. I needed to be absolutely sure.

I fell on my knees on the wet grass.

“If it’s really his, the secret embroidery is still inside,” I whispered frantically. “I embroidered his initials, CJ, and a little smiley just under the edge. Please, make the letters still there,” I prayed out loud.

I held my breath, my fingers trembling violently as I slowly began to turn the plug.

“Hey! Suddenly shouted a loud and aggressive voice on the other side of the field. “Put it down immediately! »

I suddenly raised my head and saw a pale, terrified man running towards me through the grass.

“Don’t even dare touch that hat. He screamed, his face distorted by panic.

A loud and aggressive voice suddenly rang out on the other side of the field.

“This belongs to my missing son! “I shouted, refusing to let him go. “Where did you find this? »

The man froze, staring at the hat I held in my hands with absolute terror.

“Who told you to look inside? He shouted, eyes exorbited by an uncontrollable panic. “Give it back to me right now! You have absolutely no right to touch my affairs! »

“My business? “I’ve panted, my throat on fire. “This cap belongs to Caleb. This is the hat of my missing son. The initials CJ are embroidered inside the visor. Where’s my baby? »

The man glanced nervously at the deserted parking lot. “You are completely insane! He stammered, turning to his dog. “Gus, at the foot! We’re leaving right now! »

The man glanced nervously at the empty parking lot.

The border collie immediately abandoned me, spinning faithfully alongside his master.

“Wait! Just tell me where Caleb is! I begged, my anger turning into pure despair. I threw myself at him and grabbed him by the arm. “I’ll do whatever you want, please don’t leave me here like this! »

“Let go of my arm! He cleared himself with a blow, failing to make me fall into the wet grass, and ran to an old rusty blue truck. The engine immediately roars.

I looked for my groping phone and took three pictures just as his tires squealed on the asphalt. License plate of another state.

Without hesitation, I dialed Chloe’s number.

I threw myself forward and grabbed his arm.

“Chloe, I need Mike on the phone right now! “I have panted, fighting against a wave of vertigo.

“Slow down,” she said, her tone instantly becoming alarming. “You look completely hysterical. How you doing? »

“I found the Caleb cap in the park! A dog had it in his mouth! “I sobbed while collapsing on the nearest bench. “When I called the owner, he panicked and ran away. I raised his license plate. Mike works in the transportation department. He needs to check these plates immediately! »

A heavy and terrifying silence settled at the end of the line. “Are you sure this is Caleb’s hat? “whispered Chloe.

“His initials were written inside the visor! “I shouted. “The guy went on a truck, but I picked up his license plate! »

“When I confronted the owner, he panicked and ran away. »

“Wait,” Chloe said. “Mike, come here right now! Colleen has an emergency!”

“Colleen? Asked Mike, as footsteps resounded in the speaker.

“I’ll text you the picture right now,” I said quickly. “Please, Mike, you absolutely have to find where this guy stays in town. »

“Technically, it’s against the protocol of the service,” Mike hesitated. “I could lose my job by driving vehicles that are civilly registered without a warrant. »

“Mike, he knows something about my son. He knows where Caleb is! “I shouted, his voice broken by the weight of these seven years of absence.

“He knows something about my son!”

“Well, the plate is registered in the name of a certain Arthur,” Mike finally announced.

“Do you have his local address? “I begged.

“No. No residential address or hotel in town. »

I looked down in the picture I took from the truck.

Then I had a pinch in my heart.

A visitor’s permit in bright colors was hanging from the rearview mirror, I hadn’t noticed before.

Mercy Specialized Care Centre — Parking for patients and their families.

 

I looked down in the picture I took from the truck.

“Mike,” I whispered. “I think I know where he is. »

***

I rushed over there and walked through the glass sliding doors of the Mercy General Specialty Care, with my heart beating the chamade. The sterile smell of bleach immediately grabbed me, tying my stomach.

I immediately spotted Arthur, who was nervously surveying the room near the buzzing vending machines, squeezing a polystyrene coffee cup against him.

“Don’t move an inch. “I grunted by putting myself directly in his way.

I ran through it and passed through the sliding glass doors.

“You,” Arthur murmured, dropping his cup. The burning liquid splashed the waxed soil violently. I approached until I could see the panic in his bloodshot eyes.

“Where is my son? »

“Get your voice down, please,” Arthur begged, throwing frantic glances in the crowded hallway. “People fix us. »

“I call the police immediately,” I said on the way out my phone. “You kidnapped my nine-year-old son, and I’ll see you rotting in prison. »

“No, wait! We didn’t kidnap him! ” exclaimed Arthur, holding out his hand, but stopping just before touching me. “Please don’t call them. Listen to me for a minute. »

“Tell me the truth, the whole truth, right now! “I whistled.

I could see the panic in his bloodshot eyes.

Arthur closed his eyes and took a jerky and trembling inspiration. “We found him lying near the tracks seven years ago,” he murmured, tears in her eyes. “My wife and I were driving away from this town. He was unconscious, head in blood. There was a broken porcelain piggy bank next to him, but it was completely empty. »

“Oh my God,” I panted, squeezing my chest as the terrible realization hit me head-on.

I thought about the lie I told little Caleb to mitigate the shock of his father’s sudden death. I told him his dad was in town and he’d be back by train soon. When he asked me where he really was, I replied that he was where the train stopped last.

“He took his piggy bank and managed to get on a train to go find his father,” I sobbed. “He went because of me. Why didn’t you take him to the hospital? Why didn’t you call the police? »

I said he was where the train last stopped.

“You couldn’t,” Arthur begged, wiping his face pale and damp. “My wife and I had just lost our six-year-old daughter, accidentally drowned, that same month. When she saw Caleb lying on the ground, bloody, she cracked. We took him to a small clinic. When he finally woke up a few days later, he had absolutely no memory of who he was or where he came from. He was disoriented, scared and trying to figure out what had happened. My wife convinced him that his mother had died in the accident and that we were distant relatives who had taken him in. »

My heart was packed.

“I wanted to keep looking for answers, but my wife was terrified of losing him too,” says Arthur, with trembling shoulders. “Caleb smiled at her, and she finally smiled for the first time since our daughter died. Every time I suggested she contact the authorities, she collapsed. Then the months turned into years. Caleb became our son in every respect, and the longer we waited, the harder it became to admit what we had done. »

“I don’t care about your wife’s life. “I shouted, wiping my tears furiously. “You have been hiding my son for seven years! Take me to see him immediately. »

“The longer we waited, the harder it became to admit what we had done. »

“You can’t,” Arthur begged by shaking his head and standing in front of the hallway to block him. “He doesn’t remember you. The shock of truth will kill him faster. »

“What do you mean faster? »

“Why do you think we’ve come back to this particular city? ” exclaimed Arthur, his face buried in his trembling hands. “We needed the renowned specialist at Mercy General Hospital. Caleb has an incurable disease. He’s dying. »

“No,” I moaned back as if he had hit me. “You’re just lying to keep him. »