Every time Ari stepped away after a happy moment.
Every time she’d asked for Sarah’s lullaby.
Every time she stood silently in front of Sarah’s photographs.
She hadn’t been pushing Claire away.
She’d been trying to hold on to the mother she’d never known.
I closed my eyes.
The guilt hit me all at once.
The guilt hit me all at once.
Every question I’d hurried past.
Every conversation I’d shortened.
Every time I’d changed the subject because remembering Sarah hurt too much.
I thought I was protecting Ari from grief.
Instead, I’d accidentally taught her that Sarah was becoming easier to lose.
I thought I was protecting Ari from grief.
Claire quietly stood.
Nobody tried to stop her. She disappeared into the living room.
I feared I’d broken her heart.
A few moments later, she returned carrying Sarah’s framed photograph.
She didn’t make a speech.
She simply placed the photograph on the empty chair beside Ari.
I feared I’d broken her heart.
Then she pulled her own chair back a little farther.
“Your mommy gets a seat too, sweetheart.”
Ari stared at her.
Claire smiled through tears.
“I don’t want anyone to disappear.” She gently touched the frame. “I’ve never wanted Sarah’s place.”
“I don’t want anyone to disappear.”
Claire looked at Ari.
“Would you tell me something about your mommy?”
Ari looked down.
“I don’t know enough.”
That sentence broke my heart.
I leaned forward.
“I do.”
Everyone turned toward me.
“I do.”
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“Your mommy couldn’t bake blueberry muffins,” I said.
Ari looked surprised.
“But Grandma says she could.”
I laughed softly. “Grandma is remembering the second batch.”
Mom smiled through tears. “The first batch was terrible.”
“She forgot the sugar,” I added. “Then she insisted nobody would notice.”
Ari looked surprised.
Dad chuckled. “Your father ate three anyway.”
“They tasted like warm bread,” I admitted.
Everyone laughed.
