I scrolled further before Marianne could stop me.
There was another photograph.
Victor outside our Denver home, wearing a black coat, eyes red, face drawn. Serena stood behind him, one hand on his shoulder. Her expression was solemn, almost sisterly.
Almost.
“Who told the press Serena was there?” I asked.
“No one,” Adrian said. “She presented herself as a family friend.”
A family friend.
I stared at her hand on his shoulder.
My stomach tightened, and one of the monitors shifted its rhythm.
Adrian stepped forward. “Enough.”
Marianne took the tablet away.
I tried to breathe slowly, the way the nurse had taught me.
In for four.
Out for six.
Again.
Again.
Julian’s heartbeat steadied.
“Victor is not only lying,” I said once I could speak. “He’s enjoying being believed.”
Marianne’s voice softened. “People often believe grief when it looks familiar. That does not make it true.”
“What about the funeral?” I asked.
Adrian and Marianne exchanged a glance.
My skin went cold.
“When?”
“Tomorrow,” Adrian said.
I stared at him.
“He’s holding my funeral tomorrow?”
“With no body?” I asked.
“A memorial service,” Marianne said. “The weather and terrain make recovery difficult. He has framed it as a way for family and friends to gather.”
Family.
I had no family left, or so I had thought.
Friends had faded during my marriage, some because Victor disliked them, others because I stopped answering messages after too many arguments about loyalty. My life had narrowed until it fit inside his approval.
“Can I watch?” I asked.
“No,” Adrian said at once.
“Yes,” Marianne said at the same time.
They looked at each other.
“I am her doctor now?” Adrian asked dryly.
“No,” Marianne replied. “And neither am I. But emotionally, she may need to see what story is being told about her.”
“I don’t need to see him lie over an empty casket,” Adrian said.
“No,” I said quietly. “I do.”
His eyes returned to me.
“I need to know what version of me he is burying.”
The memorial was held the next afternoon in a stone chapel with tall windows overlooking a frozen garden.
I watched from my hospital bed on a secure livestream arranged by Marianne through someone who knew someone who owed Adrian a favor. I did not ask for details. There were some doors I was not ready to understand.
The camera angle was fixed from the balcony. It showed rows of mourners in dark clothing, white flowers arranged around a framed portrait of me, and Victor standing near the front.
He looked perfect.
Not peaceful. Not destroyed.
Perfect.
His grief had been tailored.
Black suit. Pale tie. Unshaven jaw just enough to suggest sleeplessness. He accepted condolences with bowed head and gentle touches to people’s shoulders. Serena sat in the second row, wearing a black dress and a small veil.
A veil.
Marianne sat beside my bed, making notes. Adrian stood near the window with his arms crossed, watching without expression.
I had insisted on sitting up slightly, despite the pain. Dr. Walsh allowed it for only twenty minutes, warning me that emotional stress had physical consequences.
She was right.
Every face on the screen felt like a small betrayal.
There was Victor’s business partner, Daniel Price, wiping his eyes. There was our neighbor Lydia, who had once asked why I never came to book club anymore. There was Serena’s cousin, whom Victor claimed he barely knew.
Then Victor stepped to the lectern.
I gripped the blanket.
He took a folded paper from his pocket. His hands trembled convincingly.
“Elena believed in beauty,” he began.
My breath caught.
“She found it in ordinary things. Morning light. Old songs. The first snow of winter.”
I did not believe in the first snow of winter. I complained every year that it turned roads dangerous and made everyone sentimental.
Marianne’s pen moved across the page.
Victor continued, voice breaking in all the right places. “She was carrying our son. We had already chosen his name.”
I went still.
No, we had not.
“We planned to call him Gabriel,” Victor said.
For one second, I forgot how to breathe.
Gabriel?
Adrian looked at me.
I shook my head slightly. “No.”
Victor pressed his fingers to his eyes. “Gabriel means God is my strength. Elena loved that.”
I had never said that. Never once.
My hand covered my stomach. “His name is Julian.”
Marianne set her pen down. “Then Julian it is.”
But something inside me had cracked open.
Victor was not just erasing my death. He was rewriting my child before he had even taken his first breath.
On the screen, Victor looked toward my portrait. “I will spend the rest of my life honoring them.”
Serena lowered her head.
Her shoulders shook.
To anyone else, she looked like she was crying.
But I knew her.
I saw the way she peeked upward through the veil. The way her gaze followed Victor. The way her mouth tightened, not with grief, but with impatience.
The service ended with music I had never liked.
People rose, embraced, whispered. Victor stood near the portrait, accepting the sorrow of others like a man collecting coins.
Then something unexpected happened.
An older woman approached him.
She was small, with white hair pinned at the nape of her neck and a cane in one hand. She wore a dark green coat instead of black. Victor’s expression changed when he saw her. Just for a fraction of a second, the mask slipped.
Fear.
“Who is that?” I asked.
Adrian moved closer to the screen.
Marianne leaned in.
The woman did not embrace Victor. She handed him an envelope.
Victor said something. The camera did not pick it up.
The woman replied with one sentence.
The audio was faint, but clear enough.
“She would have wanted the truth told.”
Victor’s face hardened.
Then Serena appeared beside him, smiling too brightly. She took the woman’s arm as if to guide her away, but the woman pulled free.
“Don’t touch me,” she said.
Several people turned.
Victor recovered quickly, placing a hand over his heart as though wounded by her distress. The woman walked away alone, her cane striking the stone floor with quiet, steady taps.
“Who is she?” I asked again.
Adrian did not answer.
Marianne looked at him. “Adrian?”
He was staring at the screen as if seeing a ghost.
“Her name is Clara Whitcomb,” he said finally. “She was your mother’s closest friend.”
My mother’s closest friend.
I had never heard her name.
“Why don’t I know her?” I whispered.
