I picked up the box. It was light, but something inside shifted.
Watson stepped into the hallway and read the words.
“Happy Birthday, Brothers.”
“Maybe one of the boys ordered something.”
“No,” I said. “I’m taking it to our room. I don’t want them opening some cruel joke in front of everyone.”
His face changed. He understood.
I closed our bedroom door and sat on the edge of the bed. For a minute, I stared at the box.
Then I opened it.
On top was a folded note.
His face changed.
“Dawn,
Please don’t show this to anyone until you finish reading.
Don’t trust Grandma.”
I stopped breathing.
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Under the note was a hospital bracelet.
It was tiny and yellowed at the edges.
“Don’t trust Grandma.”
The printed name was Rowan.
Behind it was a photo of a young man near a lake.
He had Riley’s mouth, Rex’s height, Watson’s jaw, and my eyes.
I made a sound I’d never heard come out of me.
Watson knocked. “Dawn?”
I couldn’t answer him.
I made a sound I’d never heard come out of me.
“Dawn, open the door.”
I unlocked it with shaking fingers.
He stepped in and saw the box on the bed.
I held up the bracelet. “It says Rowan.”
Watson went white.
“It says Rowan.”
His eyes moved to the photo, and he sat down hard beside me.
“No.”
I handed him the letter.
“Read it.”
He shook his head.
“Watson. Read it.”
His voice broke on the first line.
He shook his head.
“My name is Rowan. I was told you loved my brothers but couldn’t love all three of us.”
Watson covered his mouth.
I took the letter back and forced myself to continue.
“I didn’t believe that at first.
Then I found papers with your signatures. I don’t know if you gave me away or if someone made that choice for you. But I need the truth before I spend the rest of my life hating the wrong person.
I found your address in a locked folder my adoptive parents kept with my bracelet, placement papers, and your signed forms.”
“I didn’t believe that at first.”
I looked at Watson.
“I didn’t give him away.”
“I know.”
“I would’ve crawled through fire for him.”
“I know, Dawn.”
“Then why does he have our signatures?”
“I know, Dawn.”
Watson stared at the box. “What else is in there?”
I pulled out a copied form.
The words blurred at first. Medical release. Placement. Best interest. Extended care.
At the bottom was my signature.
It was thin, crooked, and barely mine.
Beside it was Watson’s.
“I don’t remember signing this,” I whispered.
“What else is in there?”
Watson took the page. His hands started to shake.
“I remember a clipboard.”
I looked at him. “What?”
“At the hospital, sweetheart. Your mother handed it to me. She said you had already signed. She said they needed mine so Rowan wouldn’t suffer.”
My stomach turned.
“What?”
“Peggy said that?”
He nodded. “She said you couldn’t face it. She said I had to be strong enough for both of us.”
I stood so fast the box nearly fell.
***
For eighteen years, I’d remembered pieces of that hospital night.
Doctor Jefferson walking toward us.
My mother wrapping her arms around me. “She said you couldn’t face it.”
Someone saying, “He’s gone, Dawn.”
I was sedated, broken, and too weak to hold a pen without help.
After that, everything blurred.
***
Now I looked at Watson. “I need the old folder.”
“Now?”
“Right now.”
He followed me to the hall closet while music thumped outside.
“I need the old folder.”
I pulled down the plastic bin and dumped the hospital papers across the bedroom floor.
Watson knelt beside me. “What are we looking for?”
“Proof that Rowan died.”
His hands stopped moving.
I found Riley’s discharge papers, Rex’s feeding chart, condolence cards, and the funeral receipt my mother had handled because I could barely stand.
“What are we looking for?”
But there was no death certificate. My mother had always said the official papers were safe in her fireproof box.
“Watson.”
He looked at the empty space in the folder.
“There’s nothing,” I said.
“Maybe Peggy kept it.”
“Of course she did.”
But there was no death certificate.
Then I found Doctor Jefferson’s old card with a message written on the back:
“I hope one day you find peace with the decision made for Rowan.”
Watson read it twice. “Decision?”
“That’s what I thought.”
He looked at the copied form on the bed.
I grabbed my keys. “We’re going to Doctor Jefferson.”
Watson stood. “Now?”
“Right now.”
“We’re going to Doctor Jefferson.”
***
Doctor Jefferson looked older than I remembered. His receptionist tried to stop us, but I held up Rowan’s bracelet.
“Tell him it’s about the baby he told me was dead.”
A minute later, after the receptionist showed him the bracelet, he opened his door.
I placed the bracelet on his desk. “Where did this come from?”
His face changed.
“Where did this come from?”
“Where did you get that?”
